The Love of God truly is difficult for the human psyche to grasp. Over the last 55 years I have sat under a few different pastors, and God has taught me different things that He wanted me to know about Him and His love for me through each of those men of God.
Over many years I have read in God’s Word about how Jesus understands everything we go through because He has been through it too. I always had this question in my mind, “How could a sinless God know how I feel when I am feeling burdened and shameful of sin?”
God reminded me of another aspect of His love for me through Pastor Denson’s preaching of how it effected Jesus and how He must have felt when He was bathed in the whole world’s sin, from the beginning of time unto the end of days. Add to that the fact that He was separated from His Holy Father for the first and only time throughout all time.
I say reminded because this is exactly what led me to the Lord on Easter Sunday 1965. In my grandmother’s church, a Sunday School teacher taught on just that subject – how sad it must have been for Jesus when all of our sins were dumped on Him on the cross of Calvary, and how sad He must have been especially when His Holy Father had to turn away and could not look on Him because of all that filthy sin. It is so true that some of us who have been saved for a long time can forget some things about that miracle God did on our day of Salvation. I am thankful for this reminder.
This past Sunday Pastor Denson preached about the betrayal of Judas from John 13. Verse 21 says, “When Jesus had thus said, he was troubled in spirit, and testified, and said, Verily, verily, I say unto you, that one of you shall betray me.” In times past when I have read or heard those words, my reaction has been to become angry at the thought that Judas, who had spent 3 1/2 years with our Lord and was one of His disciples, could so betray the Lord like he did. Anyway, there is a lot more to that verse that we can miss if we are not careful.
I always thought that the words, Jesus was troubled in His spirit, meant that Jesus was disappointed in Judas for what he would do. BUT, our pastor pointed out that the word troubled is very significant here. Jesus was feeling overwhelmed and sad for Judas because, number 1, He of course knew what Judas would do, He knows everything, and number 2, He knew how Judas would feel after he had done it. He knew that Judas would be so convicted that he would not be able to forgive himself and that he would end his own life. I am sure Jesus wanted with all His heart to spare Judas of all that pain. Did you get that? Jesus felt more sorrow in His heart for Judas over the grief He knew it would cause him than He did for being betrayed or even what Jesus knew He would have to endure to save a lost and sinful world.
For us parents/grandparents we can surely relate to this when we see our children/grandchildren heading down a path that we know will cause them much pain and heartache. We know because much of the time we have been on some of those paths ourselves, and we know how it feels when we come to ourselves and we realize our sin and are overwhelmed with the conviction of it. Like Jesus must feel when any one of us heads down a wrong path, we want to spare them of what they will experience for their choices. But we have to understand, as He assuredly does, everyone has free will and has to face the consequences of our actions, even though we would like to spare them such pain.
JESUS TRULY DOES KNOW AND UNDERSTAND HOW WE FEEL.